profile links Sunshine You told me once, dear, you really loved me, And no one else could come between. But now you've left me and love another; You have shattered all of my dreams

I miss you extra tonight, i dont know why. 

Hello. School as usual today? Spent periods with th idiot partner. Yay. Then released for school. Was being played by my oh so lovely friends.. Adelyn, EileenKoh, Shermaine and Vanessa. I was like running around th canteen like a crazy girl. lol. Then had training. Erm, strokes then skipping. Coach and th Tat's were bloody smelly. Then had level relay. It was all so nice, until yea. What happened happened. And its fhckin with me again.

I guess thats my problem. Im in too much. And no matter how much i do. You wouldnt acknowledge it. I see you today. And me having to act as if its all okay, keeping my undisclosed desires to myself. Its all so ridiculous, dont you see? Im not over you. Never am, and never have been. You must be thinking that im fine with our r/s as friends. but im not. Im dying. Everyday.

Hello. Ok, so. School's been fine. A lil; boring though. And tomorrow's 2.4. Early in the morning. Man, what a nice surprise. Doing good with the new timetable. Having a blast with my awesome partner and friends. But of course, whats always been bothering me, is still bothering me. And pretty badly nowadays. Some sleepless nights and whatsoever. Been skipping meals and jogging lately, trying to lose the extra baggage. <: Had bbq th other night with badminton people, and it was awesome. He was there too. And then, i thought too much, and misread stuff. As usual. But yea.. Whats new, right? Decided to reopen my tumblr. Haha. I guess. Hopefully i'll be able to do well for my napfa. Sick of getting silver. Gold please. Haha. Pretty please. I suck.

 "anything we did, i will never forget." Pretty muich th only reason why i decided to use this photo. I really miss us. I swear. I still dont know why you left. never knew. never gonna know. Why? Why dont you just tell me?

Ok,so today's a saturday. Postponed tuition to go to Flea with th girls. Got lots of stuff from th flea, and i lost mood th minute i got on to th comp. Same old reason. Today was really awesome,  iswear, well, at least th first part of it was. Before i got on th computer.



Idk what i should do, and i dont know what i should feel about myself anymore. Ive lost myself in th process of getting to you. I really want to let go, but somehow, i cant, th memories keeps pulling me back, th attachment i built when i was with you just wouldnt break. And its kills me everytime i see th tweets you tweet. Its as though youve found someone new, and im still herepraying and hoping every single minute of my life that we'd be together again. And its killing me. Every 500 days of summer Gif that i see is a piece of memory that we had. Putting "Last Kiss" on replay. I cant do this anymore. Ive never felt so bad about myself before, never. My friends's have turned skeptical, and cheering me up just seems like a useless thing to do to them. I really miss you and what we had, another shot, please?

Ok, so, tomorrow is th start of like th common tests. So, yea. Its kinda funny how when i was sec 1 and th first half of sec2, i didnt even know that all these existed. Everytime my friends say "TOMORROW GOT TEST." Then i'd actually like bother to read or study. but not that hardcore. but now, im like "Omgomg, common tests!" Ok, idk what ive been typing for like th past one paragraph.
Oh yea, i really wanna go to China, but Mr. Sui said that its highly unlikely that i cant, cause im a friggin malaysian, fhck you MOE.
OKK, BYE!
 remember 500 days of summer?

UPDATE AT TH END OF THIS WEEK KAY? PROMISE.

Hi, so nothing much happened. Went to work today, earned my first 50 bucks in my life. So proud of myself.


How do i move one when im still stuck in you

Yaw, School-ed. Then after school went for emcee audition for CNY. I wanna get in, but i dont wanna wear a friggin qipao, cause my arms are liie fhckin huge. Yea, and i have extremely short legs. Damn. Yea, after that went back to class, helped a lil' in th spruce up. Then went for Badminton. Doubles with Adelynnnn. (: Then ended. Bubble tea then mac then home. Done maths homework. contemplating on whether to watch skins or look at sad tumblr blogs and cry my eyes out.


I guess th picture says it all. During th time that i was with you, ive never felt been as happy. Right now, other than random laughters other times, im just staring blankly into th air, thinking of you. 
Th times during badminton when i knew that your eyes would be locked on me whenever possible, now it's just my pair of eyes, onto you..

Hihi. ok, so school today. It rocks sitting next to Hariz. <: Erm, i failed my maths test. Lol. 2/10 sounds like sec 2 all over again to me. Hehe. Nahh, jk. Wont happen. Gonna have remedial tomorrow before Badminton. Had to stay back and do extra english homework, cause i didnt do english work. Retardededededede, but i made a new friend! :D His name is Ashyraf <--- ahh, fhck dk how spell. HAHA. k, lame. Went for badminton, training in hall today, bloody hell. Yea, ended th day with Alfian and Vanessa. bye!



Finally gathered my courage to say "hi" to you today. After 2 long months. Finally. Listening to "Ours" right now. Remember when i made a cover on that song, and th first thing you said after watching th video was "Hey! It's our msn conversation at th back!" I still remember everything.. everything.. Now, th look that we exchange is cold enough to freeze ice blocks, dont you feel at all?

Yo, erm, school today. Was boring, as usual. At least sitting with Hariz was a lil' bit better. But we not in th same class for like 3 subjects. Sian. erm, ended school, went home straight. Ate. Went for tuition. Met mum at apple store, she kept me waiting for 20 mins. supposed to go new year shopping, but i got angry, so i went home instead. Lol. Erm, did homew, likka good girl. :3 Now, im here.


And  i guess it pretty much says everything. Youre th last thought on  my mind every single day. But i guess im not yours. I wanna smile to you so bad like how we used to, but ive got no guts to. Everytime i see you in school, th only thing i feel like doing is hiding. Remember how we used to smile to each other in th hallway, and how you poked me whenever you had th chance to? 

hello. So, today was boring. School-ed. Then after school went to eat lunch with Ameer, Dzul, Amabel and Farhan. So sad Hariz cannot make it. ): Erm, then went home. Watch TV, did tuition homeowork, which i gave up doing. Then went jogging with Delwyn, Vanessa and Alfian. Jog halfway. Went to walk at Tmall. Those slackers. LOL. Then came home. End of my day. I really really really really wanna watch skins season 3. There's Freddie and Effy, but got no time. This sucks.


Didnt saw you at school today. Wonder how you did for your olvl maths. I hope you did fine. I revisited th places that we went to earlier today. And i seem to remember everything that we used to do. When we bought GongCha to your place. When we went to get my bottle. When we went bag hunting. I really miss everything that we used to have. Im supposed to hate you now. But, somehow, i cant bring myself to.

Ok, hello.
Sorry for not blogging for like, hmm, a few days? Idk. not th point. Haha. Erm, due to my elective memory loss, i cant recall what happened on thursday, so lets just start blogging from friday onwards. Highlights only.
Friday;
Friday.. Hmm, school as usual. Then after school had to go to th ISH for meeting, for th main team players for th zonals this year. Im on it, of course, but coach put my name at th last on purpose, for suspense. Bloody hell, i almost had th shock of my life. Th guys, Benny, Andro, and Hafiz not chosen. ): but they still get to go and watch and support. But Andro and Benny told coach that it was a waste of time. Kinda stupid, but i feel bad for coach. /: Hmm, then skipskipskip. Went out for crab with parents and older bro. Then at 11, went to meet Vanessa, Darren, Alfian and Delwyn at V's pavillion.played truth/dare? Lol. Found out stuff. :D Went home.

Saturday;
Erm, got CCA open house today. So went to school, he left for private training. Had lunch at mac with XuanRen, Alfian, Kowit, Vanessa, Darren, Delwyn, XinYing and Eiffel at 2 which is after their private training. Then.. Alfian, Vanessa, Delwyn, Xinying, Eiffel and me went to Kowit's house. Then we decided to go jogging! :D Yay. Lol. Except for Eiffel. We ran from V's house to bedok reservoir plus another one round at bedok reservoir. We awesome! :D

Today;
Errrrrrr, had to wake up at 830 today. Very good. Went for guitar. Came back. Went to slack with Alfian and Delwyn at Vanessa's house. Watched Rule #1 ? and some friggin lame korean show. Yea. Then came back home. Yea. /: BYE!



when they asked whether i thought of anyone before i go to sleep at night th first person that came to my mind was you. And when they asked you th same question, you replied 'yea, sometimes" You dont know how much i wish that, that person that you think of was me. And even if it was, your hesitation may have been a sign of guilt. I really miss you and everything we had. Why did you leave when you said otherwise..

Yaw. Went to school? Carried like a million and one things. Bus 28 was packed like @#$%^&. Got to school. Lessons.. Then badminton. LolYay. Erm, coach didnt come today. So, training was slack like crazy. Played match, partner Aretha. Played with Kaiwei and darryl. Funny like hell. Lol. ok, erm, then ended. Debrief by ben and msm zhang was funny too. Went dinner with th usuals. Awkwarddd~ Lol. Saw a lady with a back cleavage. Got sent home. Hehe. Here now. Stalking people. zaijian!


Every morning. Lol. You sent me home today, and although it wasnt just you and me. Everything just felt so.. perfect? Haha. Were you reminded of anything when we walked past th festival park? Were you reminded of anything when we walked past th green table? That very table, was th root of th few of th most beautiful memories we shared. Were you reminded of anything when i said "forbidden kingdom" ? I wish i ringed a bell. I wish you still remember. I wish you still smiled at those memories. I wish we could re live it together, again, forever.

Hihi. Hmm, so. I went to bed at 11 last night, and i tossed and turned till 2 in th morning, then i fell asleep. Im friggin nocturnal. I need to fix myself. Lol. Erm, so went to school and had "Lessons" i kinda like my POA teacher. And im class chair person. WTF right, i was mid effed myself. Haha. Yea, i guess that was th highlight of th day. Canteen was damn crowded today, and is prolly gonna be for th rest of my 2 years. Haha. Oh, th guys look so cute in long pants. Haha. ^^ Erm, i think thats it. Oh, then ended school with part of 2e3'11 had lunch with Ms Ng. Walked to Esso with ameer and gang with EK and gang. Saw tianshen and kelvin otw. Reach home, reported to th worldwideweb that i was a class chairperson. Yeap. Went jogging and Vanessa dug my ear and scared th shit outta me. Came home. Now on comp. Ok, so.... BYEE





First day of school, so much memories. I'll get to see you more often now that we would be sharing most of th same recess, and i dont know whether its a good thing or a bad thing, everytime i look st you, everything just rushes throught my mind like a hugeeeee tidal wave. Youre long gone and moved on, and im here, wishing that we were together..

Ok, hi. So, erm, nothing much happened yesterday, other than going to town with my mum. And then picking my bro up from th airport. I miss my bro. LOL. Glad that he's back now. Ok, so he got like a million and one stuff from Australia. He got me 2 sandals, a slipper and a wallet. Yay. And he got my big brother matching canvas shoes, it'd we so sweet to look at when they go bai nian together in th same pair of shoes. Aww RIGHT?! Hehe. Erm, then, he got like 9 pairs of jeans, including one for me, and another for my big brother. Ohoh, my auntie got my mum those coffee products, there's like cappuccino, mocha and Latte. Such a waste i dont take those. Haha.
Oh, wait, out of th two sandals that he got me, both of them were too big for me. FUUUUU. #$%^&*. Oh, and im officially branded with th name brand whore. Lol. Yeapppppadoodles. So, today. Erm, woke up at 11+ i tried whisky. Lol. Black label. Whatever. And it sucked. LIKE FHCK. Yea, then hepled a lil' in spring cleaning. Then went out for dinner. Mmhmm, that kinda sums up my day. Needa sleep early today. CAUSE THERE'S SCHOOL TOMORROW. Fhck. Oh, i havent do math yet. WHO CARES. Okk, bye!






It's 2012 already, everyone's making new year's resolution and stuff like that. And also sharing wah twas th best part of 2011. It was so nice to have found this picture on tumblr. Because now, i wouldnt have to go and edit my own pic again. You, were th best part of 2011 for me. And even though i was in 2 relationships last year, and although both of them didnt work out as i wanted it to. My relationship with you was my highlight of th year, and i hope i was yours too. Iloveyou, still.

Hello. Happy New Year! (; I spent my new year with awesome people. I hope you enjoyed yours too. Haha.
Went for tuition. Came back, made th nuggets. Then off to SunPlaza Park. Hmm, lets see who was there. Darren, Benjamin, Eiffel, Delwyn, XinYing, Vanessa, Kowit, Jianhong, Candy, Alfian and Razali. It was damn funny, damn fun. Everything was nice. I'll really miss them when they graduate and leave for other schools and i just pray and hope that we will still keep in touch when 2012 comes, and maybe do a countdown together to 2013 later this year, after tonight, they became a big part of my life, and i hope i became part of theirs too. Will miss them like !@#$%^&* When school re opens. (': Oh, after th bbq, some left, then me, darren, delwyn, xinying and alfian went over to delwyn's house. Then i had to go home at 2. So yea, Alfian sent me home. Kinda had a insight chat. Haha. Home-ed. Fell on th bed and went dead. I woke up at 1236 today, and i thought it was 9 plus. LOL. then here i am now. Blogging bout my awesome night with them. Oh, my brother's back today, cant wait to get my stuff from him. Hehe. See you tonight! :D


Yesterday night was a battle between crying and fighting back my tears. When you sat there alone. I will remember how we used to cuddle in each other. And how everything would disappear around us. I kept having this feeling that you had someone new.. But, oh never mind. They say that it's possible for you to fall back in love with your ex. My first wish of 2012 was for me and you to go back to how we were. So. i'll wait. Because i said i will. Thats what im going to do. But im glad things between us are much more clear now. I wont say what im overthinking about last night, but im happy that you were th first one to say "bye' when i said "Bye". 3,2,1 . i love you. Always have, always will. 

Ok, hihi. So i woke up at 11 today. Er, normal. Completed my chinese. Initially i wanted to watch skins, but i had to complete my tuition work. So, darn. Completed my math, and realized i had to prepare. LOL. Then yea, i treatment-ed my hair and now it's so soft and silky. xD Then made my way to T1. Err, met Jianhong, Candy, Vanessa and Kowit. Went to Giant to buy stuff for tomorrow. Damn heavy. Lol. Then had dinner at Ikea. I ate a lot. Like seriously lot. Lol. I felt like a monster. Then came back. It's like 1139 now. So i suppose i wont be able to watch skins today. )': Hmph. Lol. okk, bye!





It's tomorrow. Im gonna see you tomorrow. After so long. After all th confusion. After, knowing that, we no longer are "Us".. Im scared, scared that you will ignore me. Scared that you wont smile to me like hoe you used to. Scared that.. Ugh, everything. It's prolly gonna kill me inside, because th last time my throat was unwell, you got me my Nike bottle and Liang cha. I miss you, every single day of my miserable life. Why did we end this way.

Ok, hi. So im literally sick and tired. Not that type of sick and tired. Lol. I slept at 2 yesterday. And some stupid phone call woke me up at 9. #$%^&*(. And, im having a really bad throat ulcer, or something. And it's killing me. And  i have tons of homework to do, which is just weighing down on all this crap. Omg. Yea, so i got my bag today. And im still praying that nobody else has th same bag as me next year. And im still in a dilemma whether i really like th bag. Alright not thpoint. So, i spent every last cent i have on my bag, so its ok to say that im officially, seriously, broke. Yea, then went over to Vanessa's house, i was so frustrated with stupid stuff, so i decided to sleep. Lol. yea, so that's kinda like my day. Okk, bye.



Remember when we got th same bag? my friends asked me to get a new bag cause of you. Im afraid that you might think im not over you yet, truth is, im not. But, i know that it's just gonna ruin our friendship further if you got to know about it. So, i guess, its for th best..

Ok, hi. So, ive been like burying my head in my homework th past few days. But its like brining me no where. And i just realized that new years eve is on a saturday and im supposed to go countdown. Its a bad thing cause ive got guitar at 9 in th morning th following day. Fuu. Ok, nvm. And ive totally lost track of what day is it. Im amazing. I should get my bag asap. I feell like a stressed out cat. Damn. Oh. So i guess th thing that stood out today was, me drinking a glass of water that my brother used to wash his hands, aretha coming over, getting my POA book from Xinying, and jogging with Vanessa. Lol. Okk, byee.


Its hard to stop right now. After all th things that we've done together. Trying to get you back seems like th only reasonable thing to do.. But i guess, thats what desperation is. And sometimes, i get so worked up with thinking about what we used to have that i feel like gorging my eyeballs out. Why 

Hihi. Ok, so today is a friggin boring day? LOL. Erm, woke up at 12? I think im nocturnal. oknvm. Did my chinese. Im so guai. Then went to watch Fred Claus. THEN I DID A COVER. on.. "You are my sunshine" LOL. Prolly gonna post it tomorrow. Then.. Went down to get stuff from Aretha. Now im up here. Cant wait to watch Skins. Yay. Bye.

Ever since you left. Everyday, every hour, every minute. Seems like an endless torture of emptiness, knowing that no matter what i feel, you no longer want be back in your life. 

Hihi. Ok, so i guess today was th day i celebrated my christmas. Haha. Woke up at 11. Prepare. Went out to meet Kowit and Aretha. Went to eat at Astons. Yayyy. Erm, we exchanged our presents! :D Hmm, kowit was like Santa. He got like 2 presents for th both of us. He only got 2 t shirts from me and aretha. (x Aretha got a new shoebag, some mug, and an awesome file. FROM MEEE. :D I think i was th happiest. ^_^ I got th same mug as aretha, a poop keychain, an angbao from Kowit. And th best present evaaaa. Th nike bottle. (': I was like (INNER SCREAMSSSSSS). Haha. Then we kinda went shopping? I got a tshirt from cotton on. Aretha got smth too. Then went back to Tampines. I got another new pencil case. So, yea. I had an awesome day. Byee.

nahh, actually i miss you, along with everything that we did together. I miss everything.

Hihi. Ok.. erm, no guitar today. So, woke up at 12. Vanessa came over. Ate. Tv. She went home. Unpacked. Wrapped presents for tomorrow. On th comp now. Best christmas? Lol.
Bye.


Th picture wil do th talking.. /':

HI. Ok, so woke up and went to tuition today. And i got tons of work to do. Then came home. otp with Vanessa. She came over to watch TV. LOLWTF. Went out for christmas eve dinner with mum and bro. Was nice? ._. lol. Yea, thats how i spent my day.


I just want you for christams. I was hoping we could spend it together last time.. god darn.

Hi all. ok, so im back in singapore. Yay. Not. So.... Genting was awesomeeee. Natural Aircon. Yayyyy. Ok, so.. we left Singapore at around 6 i think. Reached Genting, checked in. Ate. CABLE CAR! scaryyy shirtdzv. Yea. Ok, why am i going into details, but stupid thing was we didnt go to th theme park or anything at all. So most of th time spent there was like standing out in th cold freezing ourselves at 10. Karaoke with Kelvin, Kahwei, Tianshen, and Vanessa. Mushroom farm with th whole group. Long cold walks. Starbucks. Mocha praline. <3 Oh, and christmas shopping i guess? I didnt even spend a single cent for myself. @#$%^. Lol.. OH AND WE TRIED OUT TH FISH SPA. Ticklish like shioreib but it was fun too. Ohoh, and th most meaningful part of th whole trip i guess, was th last night. After freezing ourselves outside, decided to ton with th dudes and Vanessa. We played truth or dare. Ok, actually its just truth or truth. Shared stuff. Advices and stuff like that.  But, yea, you cant expect much from Vanessa, she slept. :3 So it was just left with me and 2 others. Slept at 6. X_x Haha. I think that kinda sums up our whole Genting. I enjoyed it. And im now suffering from "lack-of-cold-air-disease" and "removing-attachments-formed-during-trip-disease" I would say its pretty serious. OH DAMN, I HAVENT DO TUITION HOMEW. AND I GOT TUITION TOMORROW. GODDARN.


Everytime i close my eyes. All i see is what we used to do.


I just want to know th reason why.

Hihi. Ok, so woke up at 10+ today. Got stuff from Aretha. Went out with Amabel. Home. Baked. Chocolate chip cookies! Yay. Watched Babylon A.D . AWESOMEEEE. Vin Diesel is hot. Hell Yeah. Ok.... Erm, woke up. Talked to my bro. FUUUUUU he's in Australia. Im supposed to be there, shopping my butt off. NOT HIM. :@. T__________________________T  I should have went. ): But oh well, he said he was gonna get something for me. Yayyyy. Hopefully its a billabong bag. If not i'd have to get my own. /: Oh, leaving for Genting tomorrow. 545 in th morning. And i havent got any snacks for th trip. Damn. Prolly gonna chew on gum my whole friggin journey. HELLL YEAHH. Yea, but th fact that its 545 in th morning just is such a turn off. AND I HAVENT EVEN PACKK. Alright now. byebye then.



GENTING TOMORROW. FYEAH

Everyone that asks me "So how's you and ____?" I'd hesitate for a while, and after having a million memories flash through my mind, i'd say "Oh.. Its over.." Th first reaction that comes would always be  " :O REALLY?! WHY?" That just kinda shows how much they thought we could last. And how much i thought. we couldve lasted. 
Ugh, whatever. bye.

Hi. Ok, so today was boring? Woke up at 12. (FuckYeah) LOL. Erm, got ready. Went out to get books. Lunch with momma, walked around. Got back at 5? Lol. Tv-ed. What an exciting day. Gonna bake tomorrow. Pack. Go gathering. At least more interesting than today. LOL. Oh, i guess th only highlight of today was watching Running Man Ep.8 . Friggin Hilarious. (':


Ive been trying to digest this for quite a while now. But i guess, its pretty damn hard. Because i thought we were meant to be. Im glad we're "Friends" now. If thats what friends are even supposed to be like. And that you did okay for your N's . Talking to you is like a mental torture that goes on forever in my head. I'll always be th one trying so hard.. But then again, i cant help but do it..
Why did it even come to this. 

So, today was stay at home day? Ok, actually, im gonna try and stay at home for th next few days until i take of for genting on th 21st. And im seriously contemplating on whether to start uploading stuff on my Youtube channel which is as dead as a fish now. Oh, wait, as dead as a dead fish now. .____. Yea. OH DAMN, i needa go and get my books tomorrow. @#$%^ Plan fail. Nehmind. /: So my day was spent..... basically rotting on th couch and watching Criminal minds. Lol. Oh, and i kinda completed one task for th chinese holiday assignment. I DREW A DRAGON. AND ITS SO AWESOME. Yeaaa. Oh, and im suchha genius, i could answer 80% of questions on cashcab asia. Can you imagine how much i could earn if i was in th cab. OK, im prolly boring you out. Alright, bye.



Thats from whatimissmost.tumblr.com Yea, so every time  i visit it, It just rains like crazy. But yea, its really true. Youre getting your results tomorrow, i wanted to wish you good luck, but i know that my blessings mean nothing to you now. And youre prolly gonna think that im just too desperate. So i guess i shan't wish you..  I still remember how i was always doing all those stupid things then you'd bury your head in your hands and laugh at me. I just miss being able to sit next to you making random conversations out of nothing, and be entertained by each other.. /': 
Come back? )':

Hihi,
So... Erm, tuition at 1130 today. Im such a pro at standard form. :3. Haha. Rush back to tampines met amabel. Went to bugis. Went shoe hunting. I found it. But mine was low cut. Up high to fake Dr Martens. Haha. (x
Ate. Had papaya juice. Ok, wth. Then Amabel bought her bag. @#$%^&*. Asshole.. /: Came home at around 6? ._. Then....... Fell asleep, ran at th temple. Ahaha, ok, temple run-ed. Went to meet aretha. Discuss bout some christmas stuff? I dont even have money to afford a gift for myself anyone else. Hopefully my parents would be willing to get me that billabong bag. :3 . I have to change my current bag. Oh, th memories. /': Yea...
Now, im home, in front of th comp? LOL. ._________________________________.
4 more days to genting, mixed feelings.. AND I HAVE YET TO START ON MY WORKK.



Sigh, went to tuition today. You were prolly having training. Took 67 home after so long, and th only thing that came to my mind was you.. I still remember when i imitated th cartoon on th wall,  you laughed at me, and asked me to do it again.. And how i said i wanted to sit on th purple seat. How you would reach over and put my hand in yours, our fingers intertwined.. I wish i could go back and re live it again..
I miss those times when your friends would call me "Sister-in-law" and Mrs. Owyong. And how you'd reply with "..." and come smiling to me..

Holla, Vanessa's gone. :D Jk, ): . Woke up at 7 just to call her and say goodbye, I know im th sweetest girl you ever knew, you guys can hold th applause. xD Ok, self praise. Erm, but seriously, who does that? ._. ME. ok.
Was home alone all day? Learnt some songs on th guitar, and im most prolly gonna cover a song soon? Hopefully. /: Went out at 12+ ? With Aretha. She needed to get some ham. Pork-less ham. Wth marns, there's no pork-less ham c'mon. Ok, but we managed to find pork-less ham at th halal section. But she bought a whole chicken instead. Lol. Oh, and which stupid idiot changed th rule that we needed to be in school uniform to get our books? Thats ridiculous. DAMN, i havent got my books yet. Oh well.
Holidays = Couch potato. And i guess i became one, literally. Ahahahahahahahahahahaha. Its like there's a bond between us now. -inserts ballet. Ahh shuttup.
I feel rather stupid blogging again, its  weird cause most of th time, im like talking to myself. Ok, change topic. School sucks, I havent started on any of th homework, life's a bitch. I MISS BALI.


I still remember all th things we used to say, th things we said we would do together, th places we said we'd go together.. Every place that i go to, seem to carry a memory that we once shared, and every little thing i hear, seem to link to you and me. Im still stuck in th moment. While youve found someone else to say goodnight to..
I miss lying on top of you and playing with your hair ans your spectacles.. 
Damn, im hungry. bye.

Hi all, so today was kinda boring?
Woke up at near 12, Vanessa came over to bake. Watched NEWGIRL! <3 Ahahaha. ok.
Went over to her house. Came back at 8? Bathe. Now here. Time flies like so fast this year.. ._.
Watching Death Bell 2 with brotherr. Kinda scary. And its like such a task trying to differentiate which Korean girl, is which. They all have th same big eyes and face shape. Lol. WANNA KNOW WHY. Cause they all bring th same photo to th plastic surgeon. Geddit? Ahahahaahhahahahahahahahaha. LAUGH LA!
Oh well, Vanessa's going off tomorrow. And its gonna be corny if i write her a goodbye thing here. Lol.
Cant wait for th 21st somehow.. Ok, maybe i just cant wait to get my ankle boots and go to genting. Ahaha.



Thats a Jif from "New Girl" . I guess you pretty well knew that i was a wreck after my last relationship cause i take every r/s seriously. You knew that i wasnt th type that could let go easily. You saved me from my last, who's gonna do it now..


Remember when your friends would call me by your surname? I know i miss it damn bad.. </3 )':

Training sucked today..

Is that really you? Really? I thought i knew you. I thought i had you all figured out. I thought i knew you... I shouldnt be giving a damn but i guess, its something that i cant do.
That person that i saw, was th complete opposite of  th person that i knew. Taken aback, no, more than that. I lost myself, my head wasnt in th game after what i saw. Its like looking at a complete stranger..
And it sucked. 
What happened?

Hi all, 2nd day of badminton camp. And im dying. Lol. My right leg is so sore i cant even balance on it. Omg. @#$%^&*. Ok, so report to school at 730 today? Then ran at th field. Went to friendly with Holy Innocents' (Inserts Ahhhhhh). I can die laughing there. But coach was an ass today. -_-.
Went back to school, On th bus, my bottle went pop, and then th water was like spilling all over me. And i got laughed at. (Obviously). Yea. Got back. Training. End. That kinda sums up my whole day.


I guess th photo pretty much speaks for itself. </3

Hello,
Ok, so we started "Badminton Camp" today. Camp that has got no stayover. Fabulous or what huh. ._. Lol.
Ok, so.... Yea. Training, break, lunch, break, training, bonding games, dinner, home. Exciting or what man. Th adrenaline is pumping through my veins. Yay. Tomorrow have to report at 730 in th morning. ._. Got morning run. Wtfuuuuu. T_______T . I was like not myself todayyy. Yea. .__________________.
Alright. Might be turning in early todayy. :3 . Oh, Camp food sucked btw. Oh, wait. IT ALWAYS SUCKED. :D
Oh, and YAY!!!! Aunt bought beancurd!  YAYYYYYYYYYYY

Ahh, shuttup and agree with it. Remember when you told me you wont ever leave? It was so awkward with you around today. But im trying, but i guess, things just arent the way it is. Not the way i want things to be like. Everything that people say, seem to bring back a piece of memory that we shared together. I wonder what was the first thing that came to your mind when they said "Unicorns." 
But i guess, im gonna keep up to my word. And let us be friends, and let nature take its course..
All i ever wanted was to be with you.

Hello!
Ok, so went to th Zoo today. Got like pissed at my parents. Long story. /:
So came back for guitar. And off to meet them. Took th bus for like damn longggggg. Reach at around 12? ._.
Went to visit our faraway cousins. GedditGeddit?!
Lol. lame la you. Ok ,so we kinda had our "picnic" there. Haha.  Wanted to go play at th kiddy place. But couldnt. ):<  But yea, it was fun. I got some potential profile pics. Yay. Then Jianhong got like trillions of unglam.
I got some stuff off my mind, i kinda sent a message saying that staying friends is fine. Which actually isnt. /':
But.. Oh well..
WE ate at AMK hub. I didnt know that it existed. :3 Shuttup.
Bus-ed home. Then i had high tide. Like really really high tide. i almost died. Like tsunami when i got into th toilet. Then went home. So im here now. And am listening to some horrid covers. My brother has 2 of his friends over. Awkwarddd
I still remember then, i thought you were not gonna start th conv again. But to my pleasant surprise, you did. I was happy. Like 4th of July happy. Like fireworks happy. /:
Mid years approached. And you knew that i would have to work to get my phone back. You studied with me and kowit. And although we didnt talk much. I was straining my eyes trying to see what youre doing from th corner of my eye. We studied so very often together then. And yea, you found out that i was super scared of tickles. 
We were soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo close. And you turned those butterflies in my stomach into Pterodactyls..
Please rewind the time. </3
i miss us. bye.

Hi,
ok, so nothing much happened today. Woke up at like 11? ._. Then went to tuition. Im awesome. Up high to that. :3 . Indices sucks like .. ok, i cant find a comparison. But yea,  i guess im prepared for sec 3 math?
Rotted at home till like 5+ then, yea. Cleared th air. Went to dinner.
I want ankle boots so bad................................................... Or maybe Timberland's earth walker wont be too bad. :B
Oh, yay me. i got new socks. Its blueeeeeeeeee. <:
I feel like Vlog-ing. But i think i'll sound like an idiot. Ok, maybe not. I'll sound Awe-waitforit-someee. Barney wanna be fail. I havent even start on my new cover yet. Oh, wait. i lost my reason to do covers already..
Oh and Yay again, tomorrow gonna go Zoo with Vanessa, kowit, jianhong and candy. But ive gone to the Zoo like twice this year. Two months in a row. Its like..
"OMG, LOOK ITS THE AHMENG MEMORIAL!"
"Ugh, i ran in th rain here with Celine."
So, i guess im  gonna go there as a party pooper. And whats more, they wont let us see th Polar Bears. )': And hopefully this time the Rainforests Kidzworld will be open. *Cross fingers.
We'll see tomorrow.
                                                                 The Story Of Us
Oh, (Agonizing tone) Why did i even decide to date that moon face. But it was thanks to him that i even got a shot with you. "Im so glad Aa*** gave me a chance to cherish you." God, i still cling onto every single one of those words like how i hold on to dear life. When i was crying my eyeballs out over th break-up, you were there. Talking me through it, sharing experiences and sharing the pain. Little by little i dropped deeper into th relationship.
I miss us. </3

Bye, im awesome.

Hello all!
ok, so went to play badminton today. Was.. kinda fun? Lol. But tiring. Then dinner at Old Airport Road bought beancurd. Yay. Then some stupid stuff happened. T_T Idk why either. But ya, it was stupid anyways. And again, so much for "I wont pangseh you one. " Pfft. OKK, enough about that.
I wanna watch the series "Skins" but its like, if i start now, i will be like 5 series es late. ._. But it looks awesomeeeeee. And its kinda sad too. Yay.


                                          Not over you- Gavin DeGraw.
Yea, so lets start th rant with this Video.
"If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what they say, I'm not over you
Not over you"

Best song by him after "Youre Beautiful" ?




Cheers to first blog post! Yay.



Hello all!
Havent in blogging in like decades, jk, since last year. Cause of some stupid stuff, kills me to remember. Lol. Its th holidays, so i guess th boredom got th better of me. And i dont know which god forsaken soul would actually bother reading my blog. Hehe. OKWTH.
 Ive been in alot of shit for th past one year. Like.... Teenage heartbreak. Damn, oh, th agony. But what can i do. Lol. You never expect such things to happen to yourself when youre with a person like him. So, from that statement, its kinda obvious th seperation came as a surprise for me. So much for "I'll wait." Im prolly gonna continue ranting about my last failed relationship with this guy that im still helplessly in love with for th rest of my life. I need salvation. Cheyy, big word lehhhhhhh. :x
Oh, training was slack like @#$%^&* today. ok, that came out of no where. ._.
Arh, tomorrow is gonna be a friggin bored day. But, i guess im gonna be entertaining myself. Like... Always. <:
I want to eat beancurd. Lol. That came out of no where too. ._.
OKK, THATS ENOUGH.
Bye, Im awesome.


Not over you.